MySpace Codes Make Grunge Hearts at REVOLUTIONMYSPACE.com This is me and my LeatherSammie. And this is a sappy love story about why I love her so much. I met Sammy while looking for an html code page that would put color into an AOL profile. It was sheer luck really. I had just had a major crash of an old computer and was looking to replace the AOL favorite places I had lost. I only knew the first word in the code so I used the AOL directory and looked up < body > without the spaces. it turned up loads of names but I found most of them to be school kids. I didn't want to pop into and IM with some kid to ask for help because at the time I was online under my master screen name Way2butch2Bstr8, so I went back and added the word lesbian to the search as well as the body tag. I still got back more than a hundred results. You'd be surprised how many young boys put the word lesbian in their AOL profile. I saw the name Leather Sammie and decided to check out the profile. her profile let me know she was grown and that we had a surprising amount of stuff in common. I must have spent a good 15 minutes typing and retyping that first IM. what I decided on went something like this. Hi my name is Casey. Sorry to just butt in like this but I was looking for a site that tells you how to put color into an AOL profile. I had it in my favorites but have had a recent crash and lost all of them. I saw that you had color in yours and wondered if you could help me out. Sammie was kind enough to help me with my color deficiency. I thanked her and she told me that if I needed help with the coding to let her know. We wound up talking for hours that night. She told me that her partner of 6 years had moved her out of California and had left her in an empty apartment. She was sharing her last tomatoes and mayonnaise with her pets. As the night turned into morning she complained of being cold. She said that the heater wasn't working and that she didn't know how to light it, and couldn't read the directions because her partner had her glasses with her. Anyone who knows me would know I had to help any way I could. I pulled an old memory out of the shadows of my mind. "If you have a clear glass or jar you can put water in it, then you can look through the water and it will work like a magnifying glass." She gave it a try and came back saying "Hey that worked really well. I got it started. thank you." She told me the next day that she had gotten an IM from her partner. That her partner of six years had broken up with her in the IM. She was so hurt, so sad. She told me about how she had lost her home and how they were supposed to be settling into a whole new start in Missouri. She'd left her whole family back in Oakland California to follow her truck driving partner. I was in no position to help financially but I did urge her to get back to California any way she could. I told her she should be near her family. I could tell how depressed she had become and decided that I would keep her chatting and brainstorming for a plan to get home. She found a friend who had owed her some money and her friend was right on cue with the cash. Sammie had never traveled alone and was very nervous about taking a bus across the country unattended. I told her to call me from every station where they had a layover and I'd be there for her. I logged off my computer when she left for the station. I only missed one call (potty break) it was the one that was nearest to my home near Bakersfield. She called me again from Fresno to let me know she was getting close to home now and thanked me again for all my support. She called again from Oakland. She went to stay with her niece Marie. (((Marie))) Sammie and I chatted online and ran up phone bills that took me 3 months to pay off. Sammie had even come by bus to visit me in November. We turned a 3 day visit into a week long stay. I decided that the cheap rent I was getting was not worth keeping me away from this woman that I had fallen head over heels in love with. I had only been living in that area for 4 years and only had a few friends. One of them said she would rent us a house cheap and so I headed for Oakland to get a u-haul and my Sammie. We had lived near Bakersfield in a shack behind that friend of mine's house for only six months before the heat caused a few things to happen that set me to worrying. When Sammie got hot she would start slurring her words and many times not making sense at all. She walked in an arch to the right and there was one time when she was taking an ash tray to empty it and her arm just snapped out and dumped the contents of the ashtray on the floor. She took regular meds for blood pressure so when she went to the hospital to get a doctor to refill them I told her to tell the doctors what all was going on. They did a cat scan that showed evidence of either a stroke, cancer or MS. We came back up to the bay area to get Sammie better medical care. After the MRI we were told that she had MS but I had already researched online and saw that she was having classic MS symptoms. Her Doctor ordered her off work because the stress was making the MS worse. Now you might think "ah how sad," but I have to say that I really enjoy having her home. There are a lot of hard parts to the MS but the best part is that I get the pleasure of her company without having to share her with some job. This is how I think of my girl leathersammie. I call her The Faerie Keeper because of how gentle her heart is. You know those dandelion seed pods that kids make wishes on and then blow to try and get them all off at once? Well, Sammie says her Mom told her they were Faeries, that flew from flower to plant or to brush by and kiss a kind person who was hurting. I've watched my Sammie untangle trapped Faeries from weeds or spider webs and release them to fly again. It was that kind of gentleness that drew me to her. She is the calm breath of life affirming air after the storm that was my life. Does it all just sound like a Faerie tale? Well I guess I got lucky. Because to me that's just what she is. She's the happy ending to a life long story of someone who just wanted someone who loved them just the way they were. When she accepted my collar I swore to love and protect her. Not just to the end of life, but for as long as time was time, and I will gladly keep that promise. Don't get me wrong. We have had and still have some really high hurdles to help each other over but they just cause us to turn to each other all the more. I remember that I wished for her when I was 9. It only took me until I was 39 to meet her. She is definately worth the wait. Sammie's commitment to me. Savage Garden Sang it but Sammie, you and I lived it I Knew I Loved You before I met you. Maybe it's intuition But some things you just don't question Like in your eyes I see my future in an instant And there it goes I think I've found my best friends I know that it might sound more than a little crazy But I believe I knew I loved you before I met you I think I dreamed you into life I knew I loved you before I met you I have been waiting all my life There's just no rhyme or reason Only this sense of completion And in your eyes I see the missing pieces I'm searching for I think I've found my best friend I know that it might sound more than a little crazy But I believe I knew I loved you before I met you I think I dreamed you into life I knew I loved you before I met you I have been waiting all my life A thousand angels dance around you I am complete now that I've found you I knew I loved you before I met you I think I dreamed you into life I knew I loved you before I met you I have been waiting all my life